Scatterbrained.

Sorry y'all, I have been MIA. A few reasons why:

• See title of blog. Remember this commercial? (see picture below) Only thing, my brain is not on drugs. My brain apparently needs structure. All of this "un-structure" has affected my focus, or lack therof I should say. I think they call it Adult ADD, I suppose...
• The times I have been able to manage to get my focus on, I have been pouring all of that energy in some poetic endeavors/projects I have going on right now, as well as helping my mother with her side business.
  
• I feel out of the loop, I have been ripped out of a 5 year routine. As much as I hated that place, it was part of my life and it takes time adjusting.
  

Things I realize:

• I need to put myself on a schedule
• I need to get out more and interact with the outside world to get inspiration.
• I need to get my blogging life together so Tiha doesn't quit me.

I'll be back later with another post, but I just had to check in and let you guys know what's going on....


Miss ya,
~Naturally Alise~

Poker and the decision making process.

Sometimes making decisions is like playing poker when you are surrounded by many options with none of them guaranteeing a win. I currently find myself stuck in a sea of options. When I walk down the cereal isle, when I’m trying to pick a seat on the early train, when I pull up to the drive thru window. I’m bombarded with options. No one likes to feel boxed, least of all me, but good grief in these times, sometimes, we have too many dang options. What is one to do? None of us wants to make the “wrong” decision. This is understood. But when you’re faced with many options, and none of these options are anything that you would jump to do, what do you do?

Do you hold out until you see what you really want and suck up the consequences in the meantime?

Do you just make a decision, take an option, even if it doesn’t lead you to where you want to go?

Truth be told, I suck at poker, the options weigh me down and the indecision shows up on my poker face, instantly cracking my icy veneer.

I’m not a gambling girl. I’m the stick in the mud at Vegas holding everyone’s emergency money. I’m the only one who didn’t clap when North Carolina finally got a lottery.

And the one thing I hate more than being boxed in is being indecisive.

This morning I was stuck trying to make a decision between a rock and a hard place. I was paralyzed by the options and turned off by my own apprehension. Finally, after a large coffee and many phone calls I made the decision. And truth be told, actually following through and picking something was a whole lot easier than the thinking about it part.

So what I really want to know is, what is the secret to Poker?